In this past month there has been a lot going on in my quiet little world. Things that have taken me by surprise as well as a few frustrations and optimal learning moments. From these situations, I came to the conclusion that it was time to do some self improvement. Because really, you can’t go wrong when you want to better yourself. Right??
The way I was feeling and reacting to these “new” circumstances, which were definitely ones I’ve encountered before, was a bit concerning and I noticed a very common theme. I was stuck in a thought pattern and it wasn’t helping me anymore. It was like I had an epiphany. I realized that I had been dealing with things in the same way for the last 10 years and it obviously wasn’t serving me well anymore. It was very clear that when I was faced with a difficult situation I would immediately respond in the same way I had been for years. I would overthink, create scenarios based on fear in my mind and let it consume my life. It wasn’t until I actually sat down and thought about why I was feeling so emotional that I realized it wasn’t the circumstances that were making me feel this way, it was my initial reactions and behaviours that were.
It felt like I had been dealing with the same things over and over and finally it dawned on me. These situations will keep happening until I change how I deal with them. Seems so simple, yet it was something I never realized until now. You will be thrown the same things in life until you learn to properly overcome them and heal from them. It was quite obvious that I could not move on from certain things because I had never fully dealt with them in the past. It was quite an “AHA” moment.
Take a second and think back to significant events in your life. Do you see a pattern? Do you notice that there’s a few that are oddly similar and that you basically reacted the same way during each event? It’s nothing to be ashamed of, we get very programmed to respond in the only ways we know how to. Often we’re taught how to act when faced with a difficult situation and that becomes the basis for the rest of our lives. We also get very stuck into habits because they’re familiar and comfortable to us, even if they are detrimental.
Making changes in how we think and act is usually pretty uncomfortable, so a lot of times people just avoid it completely. Nobody wants to face their flaws and open up a decades worth of emotions. It’s just human nature. Call it self preservation if you will, but nobody wants to let down their walls and come face to face with their biggest fears. But guess what? In order to grow and get the most out of life, you’re going to have to do it. You can’t heal and move on from something when it’s been suppressed and it will always be there until you finally decide to tackle it head on. As hard as you may try to tuck it away and not think about it, it will always come back up, whether that’s in the situations or people you encounter throughout your life. Until you make the effort to change your self engrained habits and thought processes, you will never overcome them. Yes, it’s scary, but it’s worth it.
Now I wouldn’t be telling you this without having done so myself. I’ll be the first to admit that yes, it’s very uncomfortable to deal with fears and old wounds, and that it definitely doesn’t happen overnight. You have to actively work on it each and every day and slowly pick away at it. It definitely makes you emotional, but once you notice even the slightest shift in your energy, it starts to make it feel pretty worth while. You’re going to have to forgive people you may not have wanted to before, you might have to make peace with situations you buried away, and you might have to let go of a few things so that they can properly play out without your interference. It’s a major change to deal with and go through, so be mindful that you have to be ready for it before you dive in. Be prepared to have your world shook up for a while, but know that in the end, when the work and healing is done, you’ll be at peace and will start seeing and encountering all the positive things that were meant for you.
I know I have a long road ahead of me but I’m so glad that I started. You can change your outcome if you take the time to release the feelings and energies that no longer serve you. Get rid of those toxic thought patterns and behaviours and actively work towards the outcome that you want. Reiki, meditation, energy clearing, all those kinds of things can help, but ultimately it comes down to you and how much you want to create a different story for yourself. You can keep replaying the same things over and over OR you can start now and adopt healthy coping skills and overcome the things that shake you to your core. The choice is yours 💞