The Struggle is Real 

We all know that once you’re a mom, life can get…hectic. Whether you’re a new mom, a working mom, stay at home mom or a mother to teenagers, it’s easy to say that those wonderful little miniatures of yourself keep you fairly busy. Suddenly your life revolves around them and “me time” is something as mythical as fairytales and unicorns. I kid you not.

And for those of you who have gone through or are going through the “terrible twos” with your perfect toddler, you’ll get me when I say “What the hell is happening?!” It’s almost as if overnight your sweet, mild mannered child does a complete 360 and you’re left in a mess of unrolled toilet paper rolls, playdough in your hair and a kid who’s new favourite word is NO. 

He’s still my favourite


As you can imagine, we are dealing with the extreme attitude and mood swings over here, so after a couple weeks of repeated f-bombs under my breath and grey hair inducing moments, I took it upon myself to part with my wonderful toddler (who I still really love) and get some much needed breathing room and time to myself. I visited one of my close friends and indulged in two nights of eating a meal while it was still warm, going to the bathroom by myself and of course a few glasses of wine here and there. It. Was. Amazing. 

Nature hike to sweat out the wine!

We go together like PB&J


Upon coming home, I was greeted by a rather needy and somewhat sniffly and coughing child. I didn’t mind the cuddles, because to be honest I missed the little guy, but the onset of a flu was not what I was prepared for. Fast forward to the next day and the poor kid had a nasty cough and basically looked like a zombie. After another sleepless night we were off to the hospital to get him on the mend. 

Croup. A scary, horrible sound inducing sickness that I’m sure almost everyone has encountered at least once. The cough itself is cringe worthy but the way it made him gasp for air was something else. As a parent, it’s extremely hard to see your child in pain or sick and be totally helpless to it. It’s a weird thing to describe but it’s oh so very common. The most I could do was cuddle him and keep him comfortable. It was a lot of steam showers, essential oils (shoutout to Thieves and R.C), and having a toddler connected to me 24/7. 

Gracie is a good nurse

It’s been quite the long week, and I’m definitely not one to complain, but I will say this: Moms deserve a freaking medal for looking after a sick kid or kids. It’s mentally and physically exhausting and lord knows we always have a million other things to get done, but our child always comes first. So shoutout to you mommas out there trying to keep it together through the cold and flu season. Let’s hope spring arrives early and we can get some much needed time outside and enjoy having our kids be their healthy, fun selves! 

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Changing

Have you ever heard a song and instantly the lyrics to it resonated with you? It doesn’t happen very often (or maybe for some of you it does) but two days ago it did for me, slightly. The song was “Changing” by John Mayer (who in my eyes is still as good as ever) and after listening to it on repeat for the last 48 hours, I feel like it’s the soundtrack to my life right now. I mean, if I were to have my life made into a fun loving Rom Com, this would be the introduction track.

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Just to give some explanation on it, for those of you who haven’t heard it (but are going to after you finish this post) it’s basically about how he feels like he is constantly changing and can’t settle for the same thing in his life over and over again. Pretty relatable I must say. A sample of the lyics include “Time’s been talking to me/Whispering in my ear/Saying follow your heart ’til it tears you apart/But hearts keep changing” and it made me do some thinking. Which lucky for you, I’m about to share.


For me, I understand this feeling. I sometimes live with my head in the clouds and have a hard time staying focused on the reality at hand, which makes it very easy for me to constantly dream up all the things I want to do in life and how I am going to do them. At times this can be motivating, but for the most part it’s just distacting. I do believe that we are bound to face some sort of immense change throughout our lifetimes, whether we want to or not, but I also believe that some of us are meant to explore and try new ways of living and thinking rather than following conventional paths.

From my experience, I have realized that in the last 5 years I have changed and grown in ways I did not imagine or plan. I mostly had a schedule for my life and how everything was supposed to be. But, because the Universe works in wonderful and crazy ways, my plans were changed. Which means I now have new ones but I am not as stuck on them. They are not as permanent and I have allowed them the freedom to change and fluctuate when needed. I recently said yes to a couple new opportunities that presented themselves to me, and even though they are both out of my comfort zone, I am still excited to see where they could potentially take me. That’s a big change for me. A couple years ago I would’ve put a wall up and said, “Um, no that’s not a part of my 5 year plan, so please show yourself out”. Is this ringing a bell for any of you? Do you have strict plans for your life or have you too been able to rise to new challenges that have come your way?

I kind of feel like a lot of us don’t give ourselves the opportunities to explore outside what we think are our life’s path, when really, growing and trying new things is the only way we can create more experiences and life lessons. In a way, it’s almost crucial to veer off the path you think is meant for you (even just slightly), because who knows what could be out there waiting! For some, creating a life vision is easy and attainable. While for others, like myself, it doesn’t come as easily because the world is full of so many learning opportunities and adventures, that it’s hard to just settle and pick one way of life.

And I think that’s where this song comes in. Because, like it says, I am not done changing. I want to gather experiences and see what fits best with me. It’s time to be open to new things and unexpected plans. Plus, if we are constantly changing as people, how can we expect our lives to stay the same? Now, I’m not saying you have to drastically change how you are living at this very moment, but I’m saying that it’s okay to be flexible, and it’s also okay to be content.

As for now, I’m fine with making small changes and seeing what kind of outcomes I can create. At this point I have a lot of scenarios I would like to test out and whatever path I decide to take, I’m sure it will be a good one, and if it’s not then I guess it would be time to try another one. What have you done differently lately? Are there any changes that you want to explore or implement? If so, I encourage you to take a deep breathe and a leap of faith and just go ahead and do it already. Our time is short and we might as well make the most of it.

 

 

 

 

Who Run the World? 

Girls. Duh. You don’t even need to be a fan of Beyoncé to know the answer to that question. Although…it does help that she is basically queen of everything so if she says us women run the world, then we’re not going to object. 

Obviously today I want to talk about women. Now before your mind starts racing, I’ll be more specific. I want to talk about women as a group and how we are generally all the same in our own complex ways. Still lost? Well let me explain…

Recently I attended a Wellness Workshop hosted by my favourite salon (Revitalized in Fairview, AB) and I was able to be a part of something that I whole heartedly believe in. Before I go into detail, I’ll give you a little background on the salon. 

It’s run by two sisters, along with their mom and they have a very energetic and welcoming staff that are always making you laugh and feel your best. They believe in keeping things local and supporting small businesses, as well as striving to spread positivity and love wherever they can. When I think of this group I think of immense support. These are the people who will pick you up off your feet and get you back in the direction you needed to go. So obviously when I heard they were hosting a wellness night, I had to go.

The night consisted of three speakers and their main goal was to help motivate and encourage us all to be the best that we could be, and what better timing than to do it at the beginning of the new year? Each speaker touched on topics of how to implement better eating habits, raise your self esteem, get more involved in any kind of physical activities, and how to be kind to yourself. It was a great example of how us women, when in a group setting, can actually lift each other up and show support and encouragement to people we don’t even know. The energy in the room was radiant and full of empathy. There were a few tears, which is inevitable when you get that many women in one room, but it was a great eye opener in the sense that everyone is fighting their own battles and sometimes a kind word can go a long ways. 


By the end, we all realized that we are much too hard on ourselves, which I think comes naturally for most women, and that there are so many different ways and strategies to starting and living the life we have always wanted. Women tend to put others first and their needs rarely get met. For me, this has always been true, and especially since becoming a mother it’s only magnified. I’m sure I’m not alone in this, and I just wanted to share a few things that I took away from this great night: 

  • No matter your schedule, there’s always opportunities to eat healthy, so research, plan and implement it, sometimes it’s easier than you think 
  • Get a support system. Whether it’s a family member, a couple friends or an online group, have someone to keep you accountable and positive in your journey
  • Practice self love. What hit home with me was “you wouldn’t talk to your children the same way you talk to yourself” so be careful with what you say to yourself and don’t allow negative thoughts to fill your head
  • We are all the same. We all have many insecurities and things we struggle with. So instead of comparing ourselves to others, take a moment and realize that we are all chasing our own goals and be ready to lend a helping hand when needed


Overall, the night left me feeling energized, compassionate towards others and ready to start the year off on the right foot. It was nice to take a step back and realize that hey, we are all in this together, we are all human, and we all just want to be happy. So whatever you may be wanting to do this year, whether it’s lose weight, eat better food, improve your mental health or make a total life change, I suggest you jump in with both feet, make a couple goals and create a plan that will allow you to reach them. We are all capable of doing anything we put our minds to and I hope that this year brings forth some amazing chances for you all 💞 

New Year, Old Me? 

Happy New Years to you all! I’m hoping everyone enjoyed their Christmas and holidays and are ready to tackle the new year! 

A quick Christmas re-cap, we had a very chill and quiet Christmas, which is something we are definitely not used to but totally enjoyed. Casey was sooo into it this year, despite sleeping in until almost 9. So typical! We had a blast watching him open his presents and looking for Santa. Christmas with kids is by far the best, it definitely brings back the sense of excitement with them. Getting to stay home and be in one place all day was absolutely amazing and you can bet your ass I had those mimosas with breakfast. My Christmas spirit doesn’t take much to activate. 

The sweetest boy on Christmas

The weather was as nice as the Christmas sweaters


Anyways, now that the holiday rush is over and we are all back to reality, I’m sure a lot of you are either excited or neutral about the upcoming year. It’s funny how there are so many mixed reactions to a new year, there’s the ones who make a million resolutions (and maybe keep 2), those who see it as just another day and year, and there’s usually the odd few who make a couple goals and actually stick to them. Which one are you? 

As I start the next 365 days, I must say, I feel pretty good about what’s to come. I definitely have a clean slate to work with this year and I plan on filling it with a few great assets. I’m not one to embrace the “New Year, New Me” mantra, because frankly I don’t think it’s necessary. For me, I started this year off feeling like my old self. I used to be confident, happy and secure with my decisions and life, and it’s probably been a solid 3 years since I felt that way. Crazy right? That bubbly, energetic woman is starting to show herself again and that makes me excited in itself. ​As seen below, I was ecstatic to start 2017 in a great outfit and even better mood. 

In 2016 I merely reacted to the circumstances and was basically in survival mode all year. This year, I already feel much stronger (both mentally and physically) and am opting to be proactive and create the circumstances I want. No more sitting around and feeling lost, it’s time to get up and make the things I want happen. Seems easy enough, ha! 

For those of you who do make resolutions or use a simple phrase for the year, I have some suggestions: 

  • Don’t chase people or things
  • If it’s meant to happen, it will 
  • Don’t let anyone be mean to you
  • Be honest with yourself and to others 
  • Eat a vegetable at least twice a day 
  • Plan a holiday or trip! It doesn’t have to be far, just give yourself something to look forward to
  • Happiness. Use that word in every aspect of your life. Do things that make you happy. Be with someone who makes you happy. Say yes to opportunities that will make you happy etc…
  • Be gentle on yourself. Don’t feel guilty over your choices and practice positive self talk. You’re all you have at the end of the day 

I’m sure there’s a lot more we could add to this list, but just remember to keep it simple and enjoy your year no matter what. This could be the year of great change for some people, while for others it’s a continuation from the year before. Either way, enjoy your time and work towards your goals, I know I will be 😉 

Sunday Fun Day

Ah Sunday, the relaxing, stay in your pj’s all day kind of day. We woke up this morning to full blown winter weather–a howling wind and tons of snow flying. It was the kind of morning where you wanted to bundle up just by looking outside.

Staying true to the winter season, we’ve all been fighting colds on and off for the last month and poor Casey seems to have his cough and endless runny nose back. This means I constantly have a streak of snot on my pants or sleeve and all my pockets are full of Kleenex. Hooray for Mom Life!

Being the festive person I am, I got over zealous and figured that after Casey woke up from his nap we would make his very own handprint ornaments for our tree. I of course was inspired by Pinterest and all the cute salt dough ideas, so I was definitely eager to see what we could come up with!

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It started off well enough, Case was a little unsure about kneading the dough and the overall texture, but it was something fun to do together so I figured we were winning in that department! Fast forward to not even 5 minutes and he completely abandoned the dough and was crawling on the table singing Jingle Bells. Toddlers, right?

We got the dough rolled out and cut into circles and all that was needed was his perfect, little handprint. Turns out he didn’t want any part of it so we abandoned the whole project for another day. To be fair, his cold was bringing his mood down and even though I felt a tad defeated in my Christmas spirit, I’m thinking we’ll have much more fun once his immune system is up! An early bath, and a warm (Baileys) infused drink for this momma made both our afternoons just a bit better.

For anyone needing a quick salt dough recipe, I used 1 cup of flour, 1 cup of salt, and about 1 cup of water (with your choice of food colouring). The opportunities are endless and with a little paint and mod podge after it’s done baking you’ll be set! Here’s hoping tomorrow’s activities go a little bit better and that we’ll have some cute decorations to show off 🙂

 

‘Tis The Season

26 days until Christmas and only 32 days until New Years Eve. What. The. What. Seriously though, where has this year gone? I can’t believe we only have one more month left of 2016, it’s a bit insane.

Now, if you’re anything like me, and you probably aren’t (for good reason) you probably have all your Christmas shopping done and have it neatly wrapped in your room. No? Not yet? Well in that case, I must confess that I am a tad OCD when it comes to Christmas. It’s my favourite holiday and trust me when I say I plan for it all year long. I think I was a bit later this year and started my gift idea list in September and didn’t actually order any gifts until almost October. Gasp. I am also a self confessed online shopper so my Christmas shopping consists of a lot of Etsy scrolling (because small businesses rock) and many trips to the post office. Just how I like it. All you anti-social people will get me when I say I loathe going into stores or malls during the holiday season, because there’s JUST SO MANY PEOPLE. It’s overwhelming. But! Thanks to modern technology, us hermits can totally skip that headache inducing process and enjoy buying our loved ones treasures from the comforts of our own room. Oh, what a time to be alive.

Alright, so enough about my Christmas habits, what I want to get across today is that for one, I’m a terrible blogger when it comes to consistency and I’m not even going to hide it or deny it. It’s been two months since I last wrote something, and honestly, there’s no shame here. I’ll get better at some point (I hope). Secondly, I want to talk about getting through a rough time and keeping your head above water, especially with the Christmas season upon us, it is very easy to get overwhelmed and feeling down, despite everyone claiming it to be the “most wonderful time of the year”.

Now, not to sound like a broken record, but 2016 was tough on me. I started the year out by taking up space back in my old bedroom at my parents house and re-thinking my path in life. Not exactly how you want to live your life at 25, with a small child, but sometimes things need to be done and change is inevitable. For anyone who has or is going through a separation or divorce, you’ll understand when I say “it is never easy”. There are a lot of emotions you have to work through and a lot of dreams and ideals you must put to rest. On top of this, there were a lot of things that were thrown at me throughout the year and it was all I could do to stay afloat. Thankfully, I’m not someone who gives up easily and I was able to persevere and get my feet back under me. I know there are many other things that people can go through, such as changing careers, moving to a new place, losing a loved one, or dealing with any personal tragedy and I just want to give some hope to those who are going through a difficult time, whatever it may be.

We are at the time of year when people are supposed to come together and be happy and grateful and drink eggnog together, but sometimes it’s not that easy. I recently had someone tell me “I’m so strong” and yes, I can slightly agree that right now I am, but it wasn’t always that way. Going through a major life change can take a lot out of a person and it takes a lot of positive self talk and late night conversations with friends and family to help you cope. I am at the point where I accept the way things are and no longer stress or worry about the things I can’t change. Many people expect you to be angry, upset and bitter when you go through something like this, and honestly, that’s exhausting. It doesn’t get you anywhere and it doesn’t change the outcome. People move on. People can change. In the end, there’s nothing you can do about it so you might as well enjoy what you do have and the people who are still there for you. Life’s short, and who wants to waste it being angry and pessimistic? Not this gal.

Ultimately, what I’m trying to get across is that there is always so much to be grateful for. On days you’re feeling down or just not yourself, I urge you to either take 5 minutes and think about all the great things you do have in your life, or if you are like me, write them down. Make a list. Then read it over a couple times. I promise you that once you see what you do have in your wonderful little life, you won’t be worrying about what you don’t have. Above all else, time really does heal everything. Be easy on yourself and be patient. I encourage you to enjoy your holidays, wherever they may be and whoever they may be with and remember that if all else fails, smile and pour yourself a glass of wine.

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It’s important to stay fit during the holidays too 🙂 

With that, I hope you all have a great December and I hope I am back on here before the New Year, but no promises 😉

 

Give Thanks

First and foremost, Happy Thanksgiving to my Canadian readers! I hope you all had a great weekend filled with way too much turkey and many laughs with your family and friends.

So, I’m back. To be quite honest, the reason I haven’t written anything in the last two months is simply this: I didn’t feel like writing.

It’s been a crazy couple months, with a lot of highs and lows, and I didn’t exactly have the time or energy to sit down and write anything worth reading. But alas, that’s over and done with and I feel quite optimistic in keeping up with this finally! Although, I am seeing a pattern where I only write when I feel like I’m finally content with life, so let’s hope it can stay that way! I have some Elle King and Lady Gaga playing in the background, with some cedarwood and patchouli in the diffuser, so the mood is set and I am ready to let my thoughts flow 🙂

Ah Thanksgiving. The time when we eat ourselves into food comas and (sometimes) indulge in a few too many drinks during and after supper. It’s a time where family all gets together and despite our best efforts we all fall asleep on the couch by 10pm. I must say it’s a great prelude to Christmas, and now that the weekend is wrapping up I feel like fast forwarding to December and gearing up for my favourite holiday.

Our Thanksgiving was a good one, despite both Casey and I fighting off colds we caught during our first whirlwind week of full time work and daycare. We were lucky to get a four day weekend to get our immune systems back up and running! Saturday was supper with my family, and it was definitely one of the quieter times we’ve had, since a lot of our favourite people had prior commitments. But, it was still nice to get together and visit, and Casey had a lot of fun showing off his stellar dance moves and all the new words he can say. This year was a far cry from the years before when we would all sit around with way too many rums or whiskeys and laugh until we cried until midnight, but hey, there’s always next year 😉

Since Casey is spending time with his Dad, I have the day to collect my thoughts and get caught up for the week ahead. I used to dread having this much time to think and be alone, but I am finally using it to my benefit and it allowed me to think about what I am grateful for this year. To say this year has been a difficult one is an understatement, but I’m not one to dwell on the negatives, so looking back at the last 9 months I have come to realize that I actually do have a lot to be thankful for.

Family. Without them, I honestly don’t know how I would have survived this far. They have sacrificed so much of their time to help me get where I am and keep my sanity, all the while they’ve done nothing but be patient and uplifting whenever possible. I feel very lucky to have the people I do in my family, and knowing that they are in my corner no matter what makes all the difference.

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Casey and Cousin Jord

 

Friends. Everybody needs a great group of friends in their life, whether it’s 5 or 20, you can’t go wrong when you know you have people who are willing to back you up and support any decision you make. My friends have gone above and beyond for me this year and I feel like I’ll owe them the rest of my life for the kindness they have shown me. Whether it’s a simple text, a much needed hug, or a hilarious FaceTime, they have all made me smile when I felt most like crying. Friendship is a lucky thing to have and I am proud to say I have the best friends anyone could ask for.

Casey. My sweet little man is my rock and reason for striving to be better everyday. He has proven to me that you shouldn’t take life too seriously and that laughter is the best cure for anything. Because of him I have a new found motivation to live better and be better, and I’m working my butt off to provide him with the life he deserves. The love I have for this kid is unexplainable, and I am so grateful to call him my son. They say motherhood changes you and I can definitely say for me, it has been for the better.

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With that, I hope you all take a moment to count your blessings and tell the ones you love how much they mean to you and how thankful you are to have them in your life. It never hurts to share a few uplifting words and in the end you’ll feel happy for making someone else happy.

Flying Solo

Let’s talk about comfort zones tonight. You hear all the time how your biggest accomplishments and dreams are outside of your place of familiarity and how you need to push yourself beyond any fears or doubts in order to achieve what you truly want. Aside from sounding like something straight off of the quotes section on Pinterest, I honestly couldn’t agree more. There are so many ways that we can get comfortable and “stable” with what we have and what we do. For some, this is totally fine, and they are completely content with how their lives are. For others, on the more extreme end of the scale, busting out of their comfort zones happens on a daily basis. A lot of times people get stuck and they start to get either run down or questioning their choices in life. They start to feel too routine and the thought of any changes brings about fear and uncertainty. Unfortunately this is all too common and no matter what, everyone feels this at one point or another in their lives. It comes with so many different territories, it can happen to students graduating, someone taking on a new job, anyone who has ever moved, becoming a parent, or even trying something different as a hobby. Being fearful is never fun, but being scared to try new things is a much harsher fate. It’s something that can hinder you in so many ways and I feel like in order to grow and learn more about yourself you have to at least take a walk outside of that comfort zone you hold onto so dearly.

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Now to explain why I chose this topic. Recently, I stepped majorly outside of my own comfort zone and this may not seem like a big deal to most, but for me it was. I took a weekend completely to myself, did some travelling all alone while my parents took Casey camping. Now it was a big step for me on two levels: one being that I was going to be so far away from my boy (because Mom guilt is a real thing) and two being that I was going on this adventure completely alone, something I have never done before. Cue Captain Obvious here, I was apprehensive because I WAS DOING SOMETHING NEW. Why are we like this?! I mean, I wasn’t totally fearful, it was actually all pretty exciting/nerve wracking, but it’s so funny how our first instinct is to be scared of the unknown. This year has brought a lot of experiences for me where I have had to deal with a lot of new things as well as my old friend, the great unknown. So I felt like I could tackle leaving my space of comfort fairly well. I mean, I’m 25, I’m an adult, I’ve travelled before, so how bad could it be?

Turns out it wasn’t bad at all. Turns out it was one of the best things I’ve ever done for myself. All you moms out there will agree with me when I say that we get very little time to ourselves, no matter how old our children are. It starts to become a thing of the past and at the end of the day you dream of having a moment to yourself, only to be reminded that you have a million things to get done before your ray of sunshine wakes up. So this was kind of my reasoning behind taking a weekend to myself and doing things solely for me. Call me selfish, but you gotta keep your sanity somehow. I enjoyed wine, a hot bath, a good book (Daring Greatly by Brene Brown — get it!), as much Starbucks as I could handle, a very relaxing massage and lots of leisurely walking and browsing, because that doesn’t happen with a kid anymore. I did a bit of shopping for myself (gasp!), took in an outdoor Farmer’s Market and listened to live bands throughout a park. It was pretty wonderful to say the least. After getting home and realizing how good of a weekend it was, I couldn’t have been happier with myself for taking the step and doing something different. It was crazy how many people I had talked to who said they had never done anything like that before. Being alone seems so taboo to so many, but I think it is so crucial to how we evolve and get to know ourselves better. This year has definitely opened my eyes as to how a comfort zone can actually stop your personal growth and clarity, so it has become one of my main focuses as to how I can better myself by overstepping that line of comfort and seeing what’s on the other side.

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Starbucks is a Mom’s best friend

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Spa time!

And another shot of me sitting, because picture taking isn’t as easy when you’re alone 

Of course, being a Mom has my mind racing at all hours of the day and this totally correlates back to how I want to parent and raise Casey. I want him to see that you can do things alone and still enjoy yourself, and at some point you need to attempt something that scares you a bit, because more times than not the outcome will be greater than you ever imagined. It saddens me to see people settle and create bubbles around themselves, people who never imagine leaving their comfortable, little world. People can put so many limitations on themselves and I would hate to see my son grow up that way. Change can be a welcomed blessing and I think a lot of us need to realize that sometimes. Comfort zones bring steady, familiar experiences, ones that we know far too well and are never very exciting. I have decided that just isn’t for me and I wish to live a life with a little more spark and creativity than what is so commonly followed. So for now, I will try to take more chances, dive into various experiences and live just a little more boldly than normal. Here’s hoping you do the same!

Stop and Smell the Roses

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We’ve all heard the saying, but do we actually stop and enjoy what’s in front of us? For me, the answer is yes…sometimes. This is my first year attempting to grow roses and so far I’m hopefully optimistic. I planted 4 bushes — 2 white, one red and one pink. For you garden geeks like me, you’d understand the excitement one gets when you walk out and finally see some beautiful blooms! I may have done a happy dance when I saw these beauties, and there was no way I was going to pass up an opportunity to take in their wonderful smell. There’s just something about roses, they give off such a classical vibe and are the grandmother of flowers. You simply can’t beat them. I’m hoping my hard work pays off and that they become a fixture for many years to come…plus when I feel like I deserve a dozen roses I can damn well get them for myself 😉

Sooooo, with that said, these last couple weeks have been busy ones (summer, amiright?). My highlight was driving 6 hours south to the wonderful town of Calmar, AB and being a part of a long time friend’s wedding. Now, this was my first time being a bridesmaid and I’m not going to lie, I might have had a few nerves about the whole ordeal. Luckily for me, my good pal Jessica was hands down the best and most organized bride I’ve ever seen and the day went off flawlessly. Like, I’m not even joking, their wedding was the most perfect wedding I have ever been to and I’m still reminiscing about how magical the day was (and that perogy bar at midnight).

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We of course had to watch “Bridesmaids” the night before (ohhhh Helen) and were happily in bed by 10. We kicked the wedding day off with mimosas (duh) and got our hair and makeup professionally done. Now, I don’t know about you guys, but I’ve never had my makeup done before. So needless to say when she handed me the mirror I straight up felt like a Kardashian and was trying to budget in my head how I could afford this every weekend. It was literally that great *cue Beyonce music*. The champagne was flowing and oddly enough we were ALL ready ahead of schedule. I of course had to get my emotions in check when I saw Jess in her wedding dress, because having a child has made my heart grow 3 sizes and tears flow on a daily basis. We then all jumped in a limo with the guys and may have cracked a few beverages for the drive. It was pretty heart warming to see the groom so nervous and excited for everything (bring on the waterworks again) and my heart got that warm, fuzzy feeling when they finally got to see each other at the aisle. With the ceremony over, everyone got to enjoy some time to visit (and those beverages again) and it was so cool to see how chill the guests were. Pictures followed right after and that limo was a happenin’ place. Who knew a bunch of Ag people could rap so well? The reception was FLAWLESS (of course) and I can’t even describe to you how beautiful and well thought out it was. I definitely got to witness first hand how Ukranian people party and I was impressed and slightly in awe at the dance skills some of them possessed.

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Sweaty messes on the dancefloor, full of perogies and rum

All in all, I drove the 6 hours home the next afternoon (because hangovers suck) and had a very full heart. The group of people I got to spend my weekend with were wonderful and I definitely left with a few more friends to add into my life. It’s a great feeling seeing two families come together and I will forever remember it. Now if only life could stay on such a high note…

The following Wednesday after I got back, we had made the decision to say good-bye to my  childhood dog Roxy. She lived a very full 14 years here, but sadly cancer had taken over her body. I spent a lot of time with her on the farm and she became quite the fixture in the passenger seat of the Gator. She was the kind of dog who in her prime, did everything from fighting beavers to even taking down two porcupines and landing herself a couple trips to the vet. She was an all or nothing dog and at the end of the day would gladly attempt to curl up in your lap despite her size. She was never one to give up so that made it all even harder. Casey grew fairly attached to her and was always trying to snuggle up with her and give her kisses whenever he got the chance. I’m thankful he’s not at the age yet to quite understand, but at the same time, I kind of wish he was. Good byes are never easy and a family pet is no exception.

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Thankfully, bad days don’t last forever and a certain blue-eyed boy has a way of turning my mood around. This age is so much fun, it’s such a neat feeling to see things through his eyes and watch him experience things for the first time. I have a feeling it’s only going to get better too. Case has become quite the “talker” lately and has even started to “sing”, which is ridiculously cute. He gives me big bear hugs now and calls me Momma, which seriously melts my heart. We were able to end the week off with a fresh haircut and a play date with our pals Carolyn and Ellie. It was a great day to be outside and watching him interact with other kids is priceless. We’re still learning personal space, but so far he’d much rather hug and kiss them than push or shove so that’s gotta be a win of some sort.

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Ummm where did my baby go?

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Straight cheesin’ for the camera
*Photo Creds to Carolyn*

Once again, these past weeks have brought a lot to the table and have given me a reminder on what’s important in life and where to focus my attention and energy. If you’ve made it this far, thank you for being so patient with this long post, I had a lot to get through! And with that, I leave you with one of my new favourite pictures, because who doesn’t love a cute blonde boy and paint pony?

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Current Mood: Wine

Have you ever had a day where it feels like the world is against you? If the answer is no, then you are lying. I know for a fact that everyone has had a day where you wake up in a seemingly good mood, only to be hit square in the face with one frustration after the other until it’s 6 o’clock and you’re drinking straight from the bottle. Well dear readers, today was one of those days. Now I’m not going to fall into a pity party and tell you how awful or aggravating my day was, because really, who wants to read about that? I will tell you though, that today was hard. Nothing tremendous or horrific happened, but it was a day where all the little things slowly added up and built upon one another until it felt like I needed to find a corner to cry in (which I still might). It was a day where I had that overwhelming feeling that life was just not being fair and that I wanted to run — no sprint, as far away as I could. But guess what? I can’t and I won’t.

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Carrie gets it

I refuse to allow one bad day to define my overall feeling of this crazy life I’m living, and I have a sweet little boy to look after and love. Parenting isn’t fun to do when you’re feeling down in the dumps, so some of my motivation comes from that boy’s big grin and twinkling eyes. I could have easily thrown in the towel today and hid under the covers, because believe me, I wanted to, but then that means I would have been defeated by circumstances I can’t control, and I’m not about to let that happen.

After taking a moment to myself and indulging in a new plant for my room (geeky, I know) I decided that getting upset over the day’s events just wasn’t an option. I preach positivity to everyone I know, so I might as well take note and try to see the bigger picture in front of me. Shit happens. Life happens. People happen. THINGS HAPPEN. It’s all a part of living and if it’s beyond my control  then I might as well see it as a lesson and move on, even if it’s the hardest thing to do. There are always going to be tough days, you just have to be tougher. I believe that if you keep your chin up long enough and look on the bright side as much as possible, then good things are bound to come your way (even if you feel like yelling and have dropped 500 f-bombs in your head already).

It’s so easy to get caught up in the “woe is me” feeling, but have you ever noticed that as soon as you do, you start acknowledging the negativity around you and almost start looking for it? It’s not a good time and I have been quite guilty of playing into it in the past. Since these last couple months have been a huge learning curve in the life department, I have learned to not fall prey to the negativity monster lurking around, waiting to rear it’s ugly head. Six months ago I would’ve seen this day as one of the worst, but now, I see it as one bad day and look forward to creating a better day tomorrow. No dwelling, no over-thinking, just recognizing it as a less than stellar day and moving on. Simple. I think…

I may not have all the answers, and I still may drink a bottle of wine and shed a few tears tonight, but one thing I know for certain is that all crappy days come to an end and I have so much more to look forward to in the upcoming weeks. So if you’re having a bad day, please be kind to yourself and do whatever you need to do to pick your chin back up and push your shoulders back and give the things bothering you a big middle finger. Give yourself a pep talk if you need to and remind yourself that you are a strong, independent woman (or man) and that you have no time for things that bring you down. Life happens too fast to be worrying about all the things that have gone or will go wrong. Plus, tomorrow is the weekend, and who can be mad about that?